This is how my life feels right now. This totally useless phase you have to go through even if you don’t know why.
You have to sort all your possessions in three different categories. The things you want to take, the things you want to leave for later in life and the things you will never need.
You have to sort your memories in your mind. Forget and let go of all the boring details of your past but cherish the moments that shaped you, let them leave their scar.
You have to sort the people around you. The ones who don’t need to know where you’re going and what you’re going to do, the ones who need only a simple goodbye and the ones you have to spend as much time as you can with because you can’t really say goodbye.
But there is the laziness, this complete and utter indifference that you feel towards your duties.
So you do nothing.
You go back to your calendar.
27th of March. Four months, twenty days left.
Go back to square one and repeat for the next 143 days.