Now that I came out to my close friends, I'm trying to tell completely random people about my sexuality.
Of course, people I can trust.
This is pretty hard since you can't be sure they will stand up for you, they can reject you and that can be pretty painful.
Coming out to my friends really got me closer to them, since I could be myself not only around them, but around others too.
We could talk about everything and I discovered a new side of each of them. They also see me differently now. Now, I'm the gay friend.
The first thing they all said when I came out to them was
"This is not going to change a thing between us!"
Not completely true. Maybe they did not see the change, but I did.
I could see the guys feeling sometimes uncomfortable around me, but also asking me for advices about relationships and stuff.
I could see the girls trusting me more and more, sharing things they wouldn't normally share with a guy.
I don't mind that. It's fun. It's what I was expecting. It's what I was trying to get ready for all this time.
Now on the other side.
Some people just try to avoid me, tying to look busy every time I walk past them or greeting them.
I get this. I was ready for this. What can I say? Whatever.
Some others act weird. They act like I just gave them all my trust & love.
They start talking to me everyday, acting like I have just been diagnosed with a terminal disease or something...
I know they are just trying to be nice & I know this might sound mean, but I don't need this kind of sympathy...
I'm fine, I'm okay, you can just live your life and let me live mine!
Accept me and do not make a big deal out of it, and don't feel compelled to share all your dirty little secrets with me or tell me everything that passes through your mind!
You're just a random person, to whom I said a random fact about me.
Do not feel special :-)
" They act like I just gave them all my trust & love. They start talking to me everyday "
ReplyDeleteand about you all day long* hahahah ;)
Shhh!
ReplyDeleteI was trying to be implicit here :P
hahaha soooo cute ;)
ReplyDeletekeep it going man! you're an awesome guy
you have all my respect
Most of the times girls trust gay men because there is never going to be secret intentions to their friendship, the guy will never lie and will never have a reason to and no matter what the guy will understand her and know what she's talking about when no one else does. Honestly I don't have a gay friend, not one I know in real life (plenty of people online though), I would DEFINITELY like one though. But I agree with you, when I came out to my best friend I realized he changed with me as well, I got to know him better, see things I've never seen and found out he trusted me enough to tell me things he didn't tell any of his other friends, though sometimes I felt like he was closer to them than me, but still now I see differently.
ReplyDeletelol... I always tell friends that i trust about me...
ReplyDeleteAll of them accept me, because i'm a great friend and i usually change their view about homosexuality in a few hours.
Except when this girl from school kept pushing me to tell her who i love, two years ago. And I did. She promised not to tell.
One year later, a friend who knows about me told me that that girl told a group of friends at school what i told her a year earlier.
Since then the rumors have started, made me hate school. I feel like some people love me and want to be friends with me, but they don't want their reputation ruined. I tried to prove the rumours wrong though, and it worked but some bullies just can't stop. But I always shut them up in the end.
Because of the rumours I don't have many friends anymore at school, they slowly slipped away... And the ones that I have left, I'm not so close to them. I don't have anyone to open up to completely, except my boyfriend. But a boyfriend can't always replace a bestfriend...
Yea, you can tell it's bad by the fact that i'm sharing my feelings with random people. I feel weird
Ah well, i'll have to take a risk and survive, guess i'm used to pain
I told the people I know when drunk. But still things always change.
ReplyDeletethank you for being such a courageous guy K , and anonymous thank you for being such a coward ... it shows that we are stronger now :)
ReplyDeletewein hal ghaybeh????
ReplyDeleteThank you everyone for the comments!
ReplyDelete@Whatever...: Thanks for sharing your experience. I know how you feel. School can be really annoying sometimes, but you have to ignore the people who hate you and just stick to your friends.
@UndiscoveredGirl: That's what my friend told me! Her best friend told her that he had a crush on her so she was talking to me telling me how I'm the only guy she can trust. I thought it was weird at first. :-P
@GAzzi: We are just too proud ;-)